Broken Down

My throat is much better. The fever is gone. My boyfriend came by yesterday and we went for a nice walk in the sunshine. Since then, I've felt volumes better. My appetite's back (!!!), I can swallow, and I can lift my own head. I do have a tension headache right now, and am suffering side-effects from the antibiotics, but I'll be off those soon, hopefully!

I had a breakdown tonight. Those are hard to come by, and something I am proud of when they are successfully achieved. Its brokenness that I want, the essence of my human nature shattered into little pieces. All of the wants, the desires, the urges, the fleeting, the feelings, the worries. Gone.

Unfortunately, that can include dreams, security, and things essential to happiness on earth. But it doesn't include love. Nothing can separate me from Christ's love.