Apprehensive

My Anatomy professor seems a bitter and jaded woman. She made her views about the health care system quite clear with a series of blunt blows toward the nursing students in class. I am going to love her.

The people at this school intimidate me, or at least the very vocal people do. I've gone to Christian schools my entire life and consider myself a spiritual person, but I've never encountered people who are so openly passionate about their religion, or at least the ones I've known were on five-minute spiritual highs on a roller coaster with a broken track. I'm not saying this spiritual flamboyancy is a bad thing; it's just easy to be wary of this charisma and its genuineness.

I made a friend in class. She is a French Ed major, and I'm trying to talk her into keeping the class because it'll be ten times more interesting than any other lame natural science class. We discussed our lack of science background compared to the other students in the class, but I reassured her that she has the best prerequisite: a human body. Plus she has me, an English major, so she won't be alone!

It's hard getting into the swing of things. I haven't really begun to work as hard as I'll need to, and both of my labs were canceled this week, so the terror of being in two labs at once hasn't taken full effect. I haven't taken the chemistry test yet, so I need to study for that and do lots of reading tonight.

There's a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach, and I can't interpret it. Is it because I'm doing the wrong thing? Am I scared of the reality that's going to kick in any moment now? Both of my professors noted that A's are scarcely rewarded in their classes, so it could be that.

Two new things have surfaced to keep me on my feet. For one, my mom scheduled me with a vocal instructor last night. It was so last minute, but ended up being really fun. We worked on one of my favorite songs, "On My Own" from Les Miserables, and it was wonderful to sing with accompaniment. We also went through some Disney songs a la "He's a Tramp," and selections from Beauty and the Beast.

Also, I am observing the St. Francis physical therapy wing all day next Tuesday, so that will be an interesting experience. We'll see what happens yet.