We'll See.

Well, those loser drug reps didn't give me the job. I didn't get called in for a third interview, but at least I made it to the second screening, right? I don't know what to do anymore. Vanguard was my last lead, but I think I messed up my chances with that one. My life is one big We'll See right now.

I sent off three e-mails this morning to the University of Tulsa Law School, the Tulsa World, and my pastor to see if he could keep his eye open for me. Yes, I look desperate. Yes, I am. No, I am not afraid to admit it. Honesty is the best policy. Things are becoming more and more strained at home.

I'm going to see my class graduate from college on Saturday. I'm so proud of them! I can't help but wonder how much different my life would have been if I'd have graduated on time with them. Would I have decided to go to grad school after all? Would I have taken a job in OKC? Would I have totally gone crazy right now? You know, I wouldn't trade anything or do anything differently. Plus, I wouldn't have gotten close to JT, and we all know I'm better off for that.

Granted, I know that if I could go back to my senior year of high school when my brain capacity was fresh, I still don't know what I would have picked to study. If I had the knowledge I do now, I'd have probably picked something public relations/business-oriented, science or math-related, or I would have stuck with journalism. But I can't imagine going through university without forming the relationships I made with my friends in my major, my professors, and those dad gummed authors we English types like to call our "Dead White Males". That, to me, is worth not knowing what I'm going to do with my life.

Okay, enough of the solemn talk. I'm going to go eat my cereal!